February 18, 2015

Finding Peace in Suffering

In the midst of loss and suffering, I have found God drawing me closer to him more than ever before.  It still doesn't make sense to me, and I know it probably never will in this lifetime, but I am starting to feel a real sense of peace.  Thomas and I have been getting up early to read the Bible and pray the rosary every morning before work, and it has made such a difference in our walk with God, our relationship with one another, and the way I have been coping. 
I have found so much comfort by reading God's word. I find myself feeling more and more at peace by reading his promises, as I know that he is faithful and trustworthy (Psalm 145:13). These are some of the verses that have brought me both peace and hope over the past couple months:

"Not only that, but we even boast of our afflictions, knowing that affliction produces endurance, and endurance, proven character, and proven character, hope, and hope does not disappoint because the love of God has been poured out to our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us."
- Romans 5: 3-5

"Consider it all joy, my brothers, when you encounter various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. And let perseverance be perfect, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."
- James 1: 2-3

Both of those verses have reminded me that God is using my loss to mold me and shape me. He's working on my heart to help me become a stronger, more faithful Christian.  He is bringing good out of suffering, and I know this trial will bear fruit that I haven't even seen yet.

"I will give you treasures out of the darkness, and riches that have been hidden away, That you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who calls you by your name."
- Isaiah 45: 3

In the midst of darkness and suffering, there are treasures to be found.  One of the books I am currently reading is called Choose Joy: Because Happiness Isn't Enough.  The author, Kay Warren, says "God uses intense suffering to reveal to us great wealth that is hidden in the secret places of sorrow." The treasures that I have seen come out of my suffering are a closer relationship with God and with my husband, as well as a renewed spirit, strength, and hope to make it through my days. 

"But I will call this to mind, as my reason to have hope: The favors of the Lord are not exhausted, his mercies are not spent. They are renewed each morning, so great is his faithfulness. My portion is the Lord, says my soul, therefore will I hope in him."
- Lamentations 3:21-24

God is faithful and his mercies are renewed every single morning. Every day I wake up, I can see signs of his mercy, love, and grace if I take the time to look. If I take the time to spend with God. If I take the time to give him thanks for all of the blessings I do have. 

"Know that the Lord works wonders for the faithful; the Lord hears when I call out."
- Psalm 4:4

"We know that all things work for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose."
- Romans 8:28 

I believe this is true, as I see his grace and his works present through it all. I do believe with all my heart that God is good and God is faithful. 

"For this momentary light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to what is seen but to what is unseen; for what is seen is transitory, but what is unseen is eternal."
- 2 Corinthians 4:17-18

We all have hard times, and we all experience suffering. I know what I've been through is nowhere near the pain some of you may be experiencing right now.  Whatever you may be going through, I pray that God will bring you peace and comfort through these verses. I pray that he will help you to focus on what is unseen, and that he will wrap you in his arms and draw you closer to him. 


  1. So glad you are finding some peace (and that you are blogging again)!

  2. Yes! Yes! Yes! And in the midst of the pain, how greatly we can use our suffering as redemptive suffering for the souls in purgatory. Oh the souls that can be released and will in turn pray for you and your family!

    "God uses intense suffering to reveal to us great wealth that is hidden in the secret places of sorrow." Amen.

    I found that I needed to be a pretty dried up log in times of my losses, the sorrow was so severe, but when God showed me the hidden treasure through that sorrow, I burnt with love as bright as I could have imagined.

    Hugs and continued prayers.

  3. And I just checked my email to find this quote (had to share it with you ;)
    “The desire for God is written in the human heart, because man is created by God and for God; and God never ceases to draw man to himself. Only in God will he find the truth and happiness he never stops searching for.”

  4. That book from Kay sounds great! It sounds similar to Ann Voskamp's 1,000 Gifts, which is really good! Glad to see you blogging again:)

  5. Beautiful photos and even more beautiful words. So glad that you are able to fit in the time to draw closer to God. I pray for your sweet family every day; may 2015 be filled with God's amazing blessings.

  6. So, so beautiful, Caitlin. May God continue to bless your healing heart!