January 13, 2014

Dear Baby Oliver: One Month

I am taking a break from writing and reading blogs for the next month or so (not that I've really been reading or writing at all over the past month) until I take my board certification exam. Taking care of our little man and studying is taking up a lot of my time and I'm exhausted! However, I will still be posting his monthly letters and birth story because I want to have them written down for us to look back on!  Hopefully I'll be reading and writing more in about a month! 

Dear Oliver,

One month ago, God brought you into our world, forever changing our lives.  You are precious and perfect in every way, a true gift and a miracle from God.  I can't help myself from constantly admiring your teeny, tiny fingers and toes, rubbing your soft, squishy skin, stroking your head full of hair, and smothering you with kisses.  I still don't feel like a human being yet, but I know these days are fleeting, so I'm trying to soak in every bit of your sweet little self.  We knew you would bring us an unfathomable amount of joy, but I don't think we were prepared for just how much joy that would be.  Your dad and I are both totally and utterly smitten. 

It's amazing how it seems like everything has changed, yet nothing has changed at the same time.  Life with you seems so natural, like we've known you forever and had you with us all of our lives.  You are an extension of mommy and daddy's love for one another and a gift of God's love, which is a beautiful, beautiful thing. 

All three of us have been learning over this past month.  We still don't have a clue what we're doing as parents, but we're certainly giving it our best and loving on you every second of the way!  Many tears have been shed (from both me and you), but in between the tired, tearful moments are sweet baby snuggles, tender moments, and more love than you could imagine.  

It seems like you change everyday.  You've recently been flashing these precious gummy smiles at us, lighting up our days.  Everything I read says that smiles at this point are just reflexes, but it just can't be true.  You seem to love interacting with me and daddy.  You intently study us and raise your eyebrows when we talk to you, and you frequently copy the faces that we make.  You love smiling at us when we smile at you, and my heart feels like it could just burst in those moments! 

You are such a curious little man, and you love being upright to look at your surroundings.  I think that's part of why it's so hard for you to sleep - you love looking and learning from the world around you.  I hope you always have that curiosity and sense of awe.  Daddy brings you in front of the mirror and you stare and stare, probably unsure of exactly what is going on, but you look so focused and adorable each and every time.  You've loved getting your hair washed in the sink from the day we brought you home, but you cry and cry once we take you out and dry off that crazy head full of hair.  At first you didn't like baths, but you just starting to enjoy them, especially when we act goofy as we bathe you! 

There are so many things you do that make us smile - the way you stretch your arms out and make silly faces when you're waking up, how you curl up on our chests and fall asleep, and how you babble at us when we talk to you! Usually when you're sleeping at night you make the most hilarious grunting noises.  Your dad and I should be taking advantage of your sleeping time to sleep, but we often find ourselves giggling under the covers about your noises and talking about all the things we love about you! 

Oh, but your cries - they absolutely break my heart, and I have cried on more than one occasion when you've cried because I hate to see you so sad.  I am absolutely dreading your 2 month shots, but lets not think about that yet! 

I was so worried about you at the beginning of this month because you were really struggling to eat and you lost a lot of weight, but now you are growing like a champ, young man!  At your one month check up we found out that you're in the 89th percentile for weight, greater than 99th for height, and 96th percentile for your head circumference. I'm still wondering how in the world your dad and I made such a big baby!  I am just so happy you are healthy and well, sweet boy! You are also growing stronger and stronger everyday, and it's amazing to watch you lift up your head during tummy time! 

Oliver, we are so excited for the many months and years ahead with you, but we also want to always remember these days.  God has been so good to us and has filled our home with love.  I hope you are able to look back and read this in the future to see how blessed we feel to have you.

Baby boy, thank you for lighting up our lives and bringing us so much joy.  You are cherished.  You are treasured. You are loved. 


  1. *tear*
    That's a precious mama.
    He's beautiful!!!!

  2. This seriously made me tear up. I love the pictures and I'm so happy for you both!

  3. Beautiful and I love the pictures!

    Caitlin, you may already know this, but it is always your choice whether you want to delay or refuse vaccines altogether. Some vaccines are made from aborted fetal cells and the Catholic Church does say we have a moral obligation to seek alternative vaccines that are not made that way.

  4. So precious, Caitlin!! He is getting so big it seems from your pictures...and very handsome too! ;)

  5. Those were beautiful motherly words! That little face just melt my heart.

  6. Caitlin, you take all the time you need. :) I'll be praying for you as you study and take care of your little baby. He is so handsome and I love your little one month photos on the quilt. You really were able to capture the sparkle in his eyes. So happy for you all. Hang in there; the exhaustion does go away. And I remember tears too as I was learning. Nothing is easy about a newborn. But as you know you learn and grow together and that just makes a lifetime of love. Congratulations again and best wishes to you as you embark on your exams. ~tara

  7. Caitlin, your son is absolutely gorgeous!!! Good luck and God bless with your studies :)

  8. What a beautiful letter, Caitlin. The second paragraph is my favorite...you put it so well! And such wonderful pictures of your handsome little guy. Prayers for you & your family...and for your studies, too!

  9. Love this. Please feel free to message me if you have any questions about the NBCOT. Also i cant get over how beautiful that quilt is...i was just telling my husband i wish your mom was in the quilt making business so we could order one!

  10. You are really never going to regret publishing these love letters to your little man. The first baby and first few months are challenging...they were down right HARD for me! Live in the moment and the little joys. Know that one day soon, you will sleep through the night again and actually miss the late night sessions!

    Glad to have found you here; we have at least two things in common: we are both Catholic and have a firstborn son named Oliver!!

  11. My goodness he is so beautiful! And bravo for writing these letters - what a treasure!