One month ago, God brought you into our world, forever changing our lives. You are precious and perfect in every way, a true gift and a miracle from God. I can't help myself from constantly admiring your teeny, tiny fingers and toes, rubbing your soft, squishy skin, stroking your head full of hair, and smothering you with kisses. I still don't feel like a human being yet, but I know these days are fleeting, so I'm trying to soak in every bit of your sweet little self. We knew you would bring us an unfathomable amount of joy, but I don't think we were prepared for just how much joy that would be. Your dad and I are both totally and utterly smitten.
It's amazing how it seems like everything has changed, yet nothing has changed at the same time. Life with you seems so natural, like we've known you forever and had you with us all of our lives. You are an extension of mommy and daddy's love for one another and a gift of God's love, which is a beautiful, beautiful thing.
All three of us have been learning over this past month. We still don't have a clue what we're doing as parents, but we're certainly giving it our best and loving on you every second of the way! Many tears have been shed (from both me and you), but in between the tired, tearful moments are sweet baby snuggles, tender moments, and more love than you could imagine.
It seems like you change everyday. You've recently been flashing these precious gummy smiles at us, lighting up our days. Everything I read says that smiles at this point are just reflexes, but it just can't be true. You seem to love interacting with me and daddy. You intently study us and raise your eyebrows when we talk to you, and you frequently copy the faces that we make. You love smiling at us when we smile at you, and my heart feels like it could just burst in those moments!
You are such a curious little man, and you love being upright to look at your surroundings. I think that's part of why it's so hard for you to sleep - you love looking and learning from the world around you. I hope you always have that curiosity and sense of awe. Daddy brings you in front of the mirror and you stare and stare, probably unsure of exactly what is going on, but you look so focused and adorable each and every time. You've loved getting your hair washed in the sink from the day we brought you home, but you cry and cry once we take you out and dry off that crazy head full of hair. At first you didn't like baths, but you just starting to enjoy them, especially when we act goofy as we bathe you!
There are so many things you do that make us smile - the way you stretch your arms out and make silly faces when you're waking up, how you curl up on our chests and fall asleep, and how you babble at us when we talk to you! Usually when you're sleeping at night you make the most hilarious grunting noises. Your dad and I should be taking advantage of your sleeping time to sleep, but we often find ourselves giggling under the covers about your noises and talking about all the things we love about you!
Oh, but your cries - they absolutely break my heart, and I have cried on more than one occasion when you've cried because I hate to see you so sad. I am absolutely dreading your 2 month shots, but lets not think about that yet!
I was so worried about you at the beginning of this month because you were really struggling to eat and you lost a lot of weight, but now you are growing like a champ, young man! At your one month check up we found out that you're in the 89th percentile for weight, greater than 99th for height, and 96th percentile for your head circumference. I'm still wondering how in the world your dad and I made such a big baby! I am just so happy you are healthy and well, sweet boy! You are also growing stronger and stronger everyday, and it's amazing to watch you lift up your head during tummy time!
Baby boy, thank you for lighting up our lives and bringing us so much joy. You are cherished. You are treasured. You are loved.