When we brought that sweet, sleeping babe home from the hospital, we popped his car seat on the coffee table and sat on the couch staring at him in awe and disbelief for a good hour. I cried – tears of joy, tears of exhaustion, tears of thankfulness, and tears of relief to finally be home. We couldn’t believe, and still can’t believe, that he is really ours forever. A new life. A precious gift from God.
We’re still wondering why God didn’t send him with an instruction manual as we navigate through sleepless nights and desperate pleading with an inconsolable, crying infant to let us know what he wants. There are nights where Thomas and I start off with deliriously tired, hysterical laughter, let frustration sink in around 3 in the morning, and then drift back into that delirious laughter as the sun comes up!
Yes, there are certainly challenges that come with having a new baby (I never expected feeding a baby could be so hard and so painful and I’ve never been so sleep deprived in my life), but the joy we’ve experienced far outweighs the tiring and the frustrating times. Just one goofy face from Oliver is enough to power us through a few more hours of exhaustion. And even the challenges bring their own set of joys. Like the night we spent laughing because we had to put our sheets and mattress cover through the wash in the middle of the night because I brought the baby in bed to burp him and he peed all over everything. And somehow poop all over everything becomes funny when you’re both exhausted in the middle of the night!
Becoming new parents has been challenging, rewarding, and humbling. It has challenged us to become more selfless and giving of ourselves, both for our baby and for each other. It’s been rewarding through those moments of eye contact, snuggles, the occasional gummy smiles, and just watching our baby sleep. The number of times we smile at each other and say "He is soooo cute!" must be a record! Being new parents has been humbling in showing us that we have much to learn and that we will always need God’s grace to get us through the tougher moments.
God is so gracious and so giving, and I feel very blessed that he has given us our beautiful son, who I cherish and love more than I ever thought possible. And seeing Thomas with our baby has made my love for my husband grow even more than I could have ever imagined, and our marriage has strengthened on a whole new level. I look at our new family, and my heart is filled to the brim with love and gratitude.
Here’s a glimpse in pictures of the joy we have experienced over the past few weeks through the gift of our baby.
Visits from family...
Washing his hair for the first time (he loves this!)
Giving him his first bath (he did NOT love that!)
Oliver's first Christmas...
And those sweet, sweet moments of watching him...
Life has changed for the better, and my heart will never be the same again. I am so in love with our dear Oliver, and I'm so excited to see who he grows up to be!
"Certainly sons are a gift from the Lord, the fruit of the womb, a reward."