Since I'm enjoying it, I was having trouble figuring out why I've been feeling this way. Thomas made a good point - I am so excited and eager for this baby to get here, and he/she will be arriving right after fieldwork. Fieldwork is that one little thing that is standing between me and having our little family, so it's easy to wish it away thinking about the excitement ahead! The other part of it is that I think that Devil is trying to get in my head to tell me that I'm not good enough to do this, trying to prevent me from living out God's will for my life.
I was having a hard time getting my mindset in the right place last week, so over the weekend I prayed this simple prayer A LOT:
"Renew in me a steadfast spirit." (Psalm 50:12)
Simple, but effective. And I've just been saying it over and over again because I couldn't find the right words to ask God to get me out of my little funk.
And sure enough, God answered my prayer. I felt so much better this morning when I drove in this morning and throughout the day at the hospital. I have a feeling I am going to be saying this prayer over and over again throughout fieldwork. I need God's grace more than ever to focus on enjoying and making the most out of the here and now rather than spending my time wishing for the future!
Anyways, that's just what's been going on with me recently! I am thankful for a refreshed spirit and hopeful that I will continue to feel positive about everything going on in life right now, not just the pregnancy!
What do you do when you are more focused on the future than living in the present?