May 9, 2013

Trust in the Midst of Uncertainty

I got some bad news this week.  My first 12 week fieldwork rotation got cancelled.  The one that is supposed to start in 11 days.  My professor is trying to find me a new placement, and I probably should be completely freaking out.  Yet I feel oddly at peace with it.  Maybe it's because God has sent me so many messages recently about trusting him and not being fearful.  Maybe it's because he's been sending me the message to stop trying to be in control of everything.  

There's a fieldwork position at the hospital that might be open, but my professor is still waiting to hear back from them.  It's a position where I'd be seeing children every day who are in a critical condition.  A very emotional setting, and a complete turnaround from what I had my mind prepared for - an outpatient clinic where I'd be working with children on things like sensory issues and handwriting problems.  

I've known my placement since August, so it's wild to start thinking about going somewhere different.  Somewhere completely outside of my comfort zone.  Somewhere with a lot of unknowns.

Whatever happens, I know God will take care of me.  In the meantime, I will try to continue stay calm and patient throughout this waiting period and remember something I've seen going around on Facebook recently.  


He has been so good to me, and I trust in his faithfulness.  I know when He opens that next door, as always, His plans will far outweigh my own and be so much greater than I could have possibly imagined.  I trust Him to lead me exactly where I'm meant to be, and I know wherever that may be, He will be right beside me, helping me to learn and grow.  

"We know that all things work for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose."
- Romans 9:28

13 comments:

  1. I'm so glad you're at peace with this! Wherever you go, you're going to bring a light to that place :)

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    1. You're sweet! :) Thanks so much Emily!!

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  2. I agree with Emily, Caitlin...and sometimes God sends us blessings in disguise... Will join you in prayer! : )

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    1. Thank you for your prayers! I appreciate them! :)

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  3. You know, "bad news" is when you find out a loved one has cancer or when the mailman hands you a court summons, or you realize you have $5 left in the checking account but $1000 worth of bills to be paid... this news of yours is not "bad" it's just *different*. No one is hurting, you are just a little uncomfortable. It's a branch in the road. If you are a type A personality, these moments can seem like "bad" things... but just do 5 minutes of reading online to put some perspective on it. You will go on in life to have many very "bad news" moments. In hindsight, this will look like a very minor adventure. As someone once said, one person's freak out moment is another person's hearty laugh.

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    1. I think we would all consider this "bad news" if we were in her shoes - regardless of personality type. Besides, the point of the post was clearly to trust in God in the tough times.

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    2. Thank you for your thoughts! I appreciate and understand where you are coming from, but I think you may have entirely missed the point of my post by focusing too much on the fact that I said it was bad news. I meant that it was bad news in terms of the fact that I am stressed out because I have no placement less than two weeks before I am supposed to start. It might not sounds like bad news to you, especially when you do not know my entire situation or what is going on in my life right now, but this was stressful news for me, and yes, I still do consider it bad news.

      However, I was absolutely in no way trying to compare my situation to someone who has cancer, doesn't have enough money for their bills, or has a court summons. I would never even dream of comparing something as small as this to something as huge as that.

      I do think I have a good perspective on it because I do not think woe is me or that I have a horrible situation going on. I was simply saying through my post that I trust that God has a great plan even if it was not where I thought it was going.

      I am sorry if I offended you by making it seem like I thought I was in some sort of terrible situation. I know there are many who have been tried beyond anything I could possibly imagine, and I was not trying to compare my situation to any of those.

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  4. I am so sorry your rotation was canceled. I totally agree with you though, God has a plan and it will be better than you can imagine! He always has a way of changing our plans and reminding us that Hes is in control and we are His instruments! God bless in your future endeavours!

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words! I really appreciate it Rachel! :)

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  5. The fact that you feel at peace probably means something even better is in the works!

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  6. I'll be praying for you! I love that quote and picture, I haven't seen it yet, but it is so true. There have been so many times I had something planned a certain way and it turned out differently, but later God brought a much greater good than I had ever imagined out of the situation. God Bless!

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    1. Thank you so much for your prayers, Kari! He always does that for me too, and I'm sure this time will be no different!

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