Yesterday was just one of those days where I felt stressed out and irritable for most of the day. I don't know whether it was from not getting enough sleep or just from the busyness of the beginning of the semester, but either way I was unreasonably grumpy and I felt embarrassed with myself for being so negative throughout the day. As I sat down to fill out the paperwork for my new job, I realized that all my (internal) complaints probably made God think that I am so selfish and ungrateful. Truly ungrateful. I had to take a moment for a serious attitude check and a change in perspective to focus on the positive and to get myself out of that funk.
I was irritated that they are re-plumbing our apartment building for the next two weeks, so we've had to move everything out of our bathroom which has thrown off my routine
I saw the prices on the repair truck, and I am grateful we are living in an apartment that takes care of these issues and that we don't have to pay for maintaining a home yet.
I was irritated about having poison ivy and for being so miserably itchy.
I am grateful that the poison ivy is just on my knee and not all over my body. I might have sensitive skin, but I'm thankful that this is temporary and that I don't carry the cross of a recurring skin condition.
I was irritated that the school pharmacy wouldn't fill my prescription for the cream because they don't take my insurance.
I am thankful for a husband who is willing to run errands with me after a long day at work and for the pharmacy technician at Target who had me hysterically laughing last night.
I was irritated that I had so many chapters to read for the first week of class.
I am so thankful to be at school here, to be loving what I'm learning, and to be on the path to an amazing career!
I was irritated that I had to unexpectedly take the bus to the other campus two times and waste so much time with waiting for the bus when I planned on getting schoolwork done.
I am thankful that I have free transportation to take me where I need to go and that I don't have to stress out about parking on the other campus.
There are so many good things going on in my life right now that it's just not worth feeling negative about the small things. More importantly, there's the fact that the Lord loves us so much that he died on the cross for us. Seriously, whenever I reflect on the sorrowful mysteries when saying the rosary, I am absolutely astounded thinking about how much God must love us in order to endure so much suffering. His love for us is so strong and so perfect that it's hard for me to even wrap my mind around. When I stop for a moment to think about that, it seems ridiculous to waste time feeling annoyed or irritated.
"I have told you this so that you might have peace in me. In the world you will have trouble, but take courage, I have overcome the world."
I'll be praying to keep my mind focused on the eternal instead of the transitory things of this world throughout this semester (2 Corinthians 4:18).